I've been really wanting to write again lately. I've sat staring at this blank page for a while now. I started to write about several things, but each time, the perfectionist engineer half of my brain stopped me. And yet, the artistic half keeps urging me on.
"Create! Write!" it says.
"It isn't perfect! You aren't doing it right." shouts back my left brain.
"Shut up! I want to design something! Build something! Create something! Paint! Draw! Write! Ahhhhh!!!! I'm gonna go crazy!" responds my right brain.
Yup. My brain argues with itself. It makes it difficult to focus at times. Or think.
If I try to do something mathematical, my right brain fights against it.
If I try to do something creative, my left brain fights against it.
Sometimes I wonder why God gave me such a tumultuous brain. (Even right now, I'm having such a difficult time continuing to write, even though I'm not really trying to be creative at all). I feel like I'm supposed to create something. I'd love to write a novel, or write a bunch of tutorials that teach programming, or paint a beautiful landscape, or design and program an awesome video game, or draw a portrait of my lovely bride.
But a combination of my own laziness and my crazy brain always get in the way.
I feel like this has gotten off topic (whatever the topic was to begin with) so I'm just going to end it now. Suffice to say, my brain is a confusing place to live.
At least I wrote something :)
